Random blog post from a random blogger for random blog followers!

So I have had a lot going on lately and I realized after speaking with a friend of mine that I haven’t posted in a while… So I am here and have a few things to say….

Big news: 1. I have reached over 100 followers here on wordpress (round of applause) So a big thank you to all of you amazing followers for making me feel like I have hit a milestone I never thought would happen! 2. I had a job interview yesterday but I will get into that a little later. 3. You are all amazing and 4. I have had a few new books to add to my collection!

~ Amazing Followers for my amazing blog!~

So I currently have 105 followers and I couldnt be more excited! When I first started blogging I thought ” Man I am going to be at this a while before I start getting anywhere”, and even though that has proven to be true I hit 100 followers before I though it would sooooo YAY!!!! lol! My most dedicated follower has come to be one of my favorite fellow bloggers and it kinda makes you stop and think about how small this world really is. As a blogger you connect with fellow bloggers or people with questions and you know that you at least have one thing in common. You both either blog or you are both either into the same types of things.

Well that’s how my relationship started with Miss Stephanie of The Readers Oasis. Now I came to the conclusion that yes we are both bloggers but we are both also book obsessed! I also found out that not only are we both about the same age but that we have very similar lifestyles. And even though she lives in a very busy city, and I in a very small town she displays so many of the same characteristics as me and that alone makes her pretty awesome! If you haven’t had the opportunity yet to follow her please go wander on over to her blog and take a look at some of her posts because you just might get to know her the way I do and I am sure you will like her just as much if not more! JK!  https://readersoasis.wordpress.com

~ You Are All AMAZING~

Since I have started THMH I have come in contact with amazing writers, bloggers, fans and great giveaways and I would love to do the same on my blog! Just a heads up to all of you… I am hoping and praying that in a few months I will be able to get up about 20-30 authors to do some giveaways and if i can I would like to hope that whoever does win anything that you would kindly give any and all feedback for each author, if they are your favorite author or you liked or disliked their work. Now if that goes well and doesn’t completely drain anyone I would like to do a bigger giveaway in December with either all of the books I have reviewed or 60 different authors! I mean who wouldn’t love to win free books from amazing writers!

~Blue Collar Woman~

Like i stated at the beginning of this post I had a job interview yesterday. Now this is a hard subject for me because I haven’t been employed for a while now. I had posted something on my Facebook about my interview and I can honestly say I was scared to see responses. Most of the content I share on Facebook doesn’t get much attention and I am okay with that. But yesterday I was amazed to see that 30 people liked the post alone. I was scared however because I didn’t want one of my family members to ask what business the interview was for. My family does not consist of bad, stuck up people. It is comprised of strong, dedicated individuals who have made so much of themselves through hard work and dedication. My family has created their own businesses and its hard for me to let them know that their 25 year old sister, daughter, aunt, granddaughter or cousin could only be receiving a job working at Taco Bell. I was lucky that no one did ask and I felt like I had so much support from everyone yesterday but while I was in bed last night I just had this feeling that if my family knew they would be disappointed that that is as far as I have made it in life. I’m hoping to hear back from someone soon so until then I am sure I will feel this way. Stupid feelings.

~ Recently added books on the book shelf in no particular order~

** Revelations By Pamela Daniell **

I was contacted by Miss Pam on Goodreads to do a review of her book. I started it yesterday with a couple others and i could not put it down last night. I really like it and i think it is because it reminds me of a mix between mortal instruments and percy Jackson. Ill leave the book synopsis and buying link below but stay tuned for a book review soon!

Synopsis:

Jenna Morgan is just like any normal teenager. That is until she turns seventeen. In a matter of a week Jenna is kidnapped, meets a mysterious young man named, Alex and learns the shocking truth about her true heritage, which is the reason both demons and the angels are hunting her.

Just when she comes to accept her new identity the unthinkable happens leaving Jenna devastated. She soon meets Dylan, a small town homeboy who quickly heals her heart. But when his life is threatened by the same monsters who had already torn her world apart will Jenna be able to save him in time…or will she die trying?

Buying link:

http://www.amazon.com/Revelations-Pamela-Daniell/dp/0692330127/ref=tmm_pap_title_0

** Orhan’s Inheritance By Aline Ohanesian **

I just got this yesterday and started it as well! I won it in a LibraryThing giveaway and completely forgot to expect it. However, this book is not available to the public yet but make sure to get your pre-order on and soon! Release date is April 7th of this year so be on the look out for it!

Synopsis:

When Orhan’s brilliant and eccentric grandfather Kemal—a man who built a dynasty out of makingkilim rugs—is found dead, submerged in a vat of dye, Orhan inherits the decades-old business. But Kemal’s will raises more questions than it answers. He has left the family estate to a stranger thousands of miles away, an aging woman in an Armenian retirement home in Los Angeles. Her existence and secrecy about her past only deepen the mystery of why Orhan’s grandfather willed his home in Turkey to an unknown woman rather than to his own son or grandson.

Left with only Kemal’s ancient sketchbook and intent on righting this injustice, Orhan boards a plane to Los Angeles. There he will not only unearth the story that eighty-seven-year-old Seda so closely guards but discover that Seda’s past now threatens to unravel his future. Her story, if told, has the power to undo the legacy upon which his family has been built.

Moving back and forth in time, between the last years of the Ottoman Empire and the 1990s, Orhan’s Inheritance is a story of passionate love, unspeakable horrors, incredible resilience, and the hidden stories that can haunt a family for generations

Buying link:

http://www.amazon.com/Orhans-Inheritance-Aline-Ohanesian/dp/1616203749/ref=sr_1_1_twi_2?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1425599434&sr=1-1&keywords=Orhan%27s+Inheritance+By+Aline+Ohanesian

** Buried Threads By Kaylin McFarren **

I have not started reading this and i wont until i win the  first one from Feado.com and that will only happen after i get the books i worked hard for after almost 4 months of waiting!

Synopsis:

A disturbing prophecy sends a treasure hunting duo on an urgent race to rescue a country in Kaylin McFarren’s heart pounding new novel, Buried Threads. Full of erotic suspense and wild adventures, this is one trip that readers will never forget!

Rachel Lyons and Chase Cohen work together as the successful owners of a treasure hunting company. But a seemingly simple assignment–to track down a priceless gem that is believed to be buried in a shipwreck deep within the Sea of Japan–takes a startling, and dangerous, turn.

Faced with a monk’s dark prophecy that a natural disaster will soon strike Japan, killing millions, Rachel and Chase must embark on the mission of a lifetime in order to uncover the three cursed samurai swords that can avert the catastrophe.

Chaos ensues as their adventure takes them from shark infested waters and creepy caves to haunted hidden tombs and a confrontation with Yakuza gang members. Time is running out as the prophecy’s day of reckoning draws near. Will Rachel and Chase succeed before disaster strikes?

Buying Link:

http://www.amazon.com/Buried-Threads-Kaylin-McFarren-ebook/dp/B00GCQTKHA/ref=sr_1_1?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1425599739&sr=1-1&keywords=Buried+threads

** The Lunar Chronicles By Marissa Meyer **

I am officially in love with this series! How often do you think of old school fairy tale characters in a dystopian type of society? Much less as cyborgs and rebels!? When i first heard about it i was leery about it because… well to be honest, i didn’t want some of my favorite stories ruined with sy-fi crap but i was impressed and amazed at how well these books have attracted me! I have just finished book 2 and and am eager to start number 3 and 4.

Cinder:

Synopsis:

Humans and androids crowd the raucous streets of New Beijing. A deadly plague ravages the population. From space, a ruthless lunar people watch, waiting to make their move. No one knows that Earth’s fate hinges on one girl. . . .

Cinder, a gifted mechanic, is a cyborg. She’s a second-class citizen with a mysterious past, reviled by her stepmother and blamed for her stepsister’s illness. But when her life becomes intertwined with the handsome Prince Kai’s, she suddenly finds herself at the center of an intergalactic struggle, and a forbidden attraction. Caught between duty and freedom, loyalty and betrayal, she must uncover secrets about her past in order to protect her world’s future.

Buying link:

http://www.amazon.com/Cinder-Book-One-Lunar-Chronicles/dp/1250007208/ref=sr_1_cc_1?s=aps&ie=UTF8&qid=1425600041&sr=1-1-catcorr&keywords=the+lunar+chronicles+box+set

Scarlet

Synopsis:

Cinder is back and trying to break out of prison—even though she’ll be the Commonwealth’s most wanted fugitive if she does—in this second installment from Marissa Meyer.

Halfway around the world, Scarlet Benoit’s grandmother is missing. It turns out there are many things Scarlet doesn’t know about her grandmother, or the grave danger she has lived in her whole life. When Scarlet encounters Wolf, a street fighter who may have information as to her grandmother’s whereabouts, she is loath to trust this stranger, but is inexplicably drawn to him, and he to her. As Scarlet and Wolf unravel one mystery, they encounter another when they meet Cinder. Now, all of them must stay one step ahead of the vicious Lunar Queen Levana.

Buying link:

http://www.amazon.com/Scarlet-Lunar-Chronicles-Book/dp/1250007216/ref=sr_1_cc_2?s=aps&ie=UTF8&qid=1425600041&sr=1-2-catcorr&keywords=the+lunar+chronicles+box+set

Cress

Synopsis:

Cinder and Captain Thorne are fugitives on the run, with Scarlet and Wolf in tow. Together they’re plotting to overthrow Queen Levana and her army.

Their best hope lies with Cress, who has been trapped on a satellite since childhood with only her netscreens as company. All that screen time has made Cress an excellent hacker; unfortunately, she’s just received orders from Levana to track down Cinder and her handsome accomplice.

When a daring rescue goes awry, the group is separated. Cress finally has her freedom, but it comes at a high price. Meanwhile, Queen Levana will let nothing stop her marriage to Emperor Kai. Cress, Scarlet, and Cinder may not have signed up to save the world, but they may be the only ones who can.

Buying link:

http://www.amazon.com/Cress-Lunar-Chronicles-Marissa-Meyer/dp/1250007224/ref=sr_1_cc_3?s=aps&ie=UTF8&qid=1425600041&sr=1-3-catcorr&keywords=the+lunar+chronicles+box+set

Fairest

Synopsis:

Mirror, mirror, on the wall.
Who is the Fairest of them all?

Pure evil has a name, hides behind a mask of deceit, and uses her “glamour” to gain power. But whois Queen Levana? Long before she crossed paths with Cinder, Scarlet, and Cress in The Lunar Chronicles, Levana lived a very different story—a story that has never been told . . . until now.

Buying link:

http://www.amazon.com/Fairest-Lunar-Chronicles-Levanas-Story/dp/1250060559/ref=sr_1_cc_4?s=aps&ie=UTF8&qid=1425600041&sr=1-4-catcorr&keywords=the+lunar+chronicles+box+set

** Once Upon Two Kingdoms By Anna del C. Dye **

I was contacted through Goodreads for this as well and havent started it yet but i will be by this weekend.  i only have a buying link for this as there is not a simple synopsis.

Buying link:

http://www.amazon.com/Once-Upon-Kingdoms-Royal-Romance-ebook/dp/B00T02FSH4/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1425600442&sr=1-1&keywords=Once+Upon+Two+Kingdoms+By+Anna+del+C.+Dye

** Red Queen By Victoria Aveyard **

You know me and my dystopian type books! This is my next TBR so i am reading four books now to get started on this one!

Synopsis:

Graceling meets The Selection in debut novelist Victoria Aveyard’s sweeping tale of seventeen-year-old Mare, a common girl whose once-latent magical power draws her into the dangerous intrigue of the king’s palace. Will her power save her or condemn her?

Mare Barrow’s world is divided by blood—those with common, Red blood serve the Silver- blooded elite, who are gifted with superhuman abilities. Mare is a Red, scraping by as a thief in a poor, rural village, until a twist of fate throws her in front of the Silver court. Before the king, princes, and all the nobles, she discovers she has an ability of her own.

To cover up this impossibility, the king forces her to play the role of a lost Silver princess and betroths her to one of his own sons. As Mare is drawn further into the Silver world, she risks everything and uses her new position to help the Scarlet Guard—a growing Red rebellion—even as her heart tugs her in an impossible direction. One wrong move can lead to her death, but in the dangerous game she plays, the only certainty is betrayal.

Buying Link:

http://www.amazon.com/Red-Queen-Victoria-Aveyard-ebook/dp/B00KFG156C/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1425600579&sr=1-1&keywords=Red+Queen+By+Victoria+Aveyard

So that’s my last week in a nutshell and i will probably be back Monday with a new post with reviews for you! Hope you all have a great day and as always, Love y’all and happy reading!

“As the tide washed in, the Dutch Tulip Man faced the ocean: ‘Conjoiner rejoinder poisoner concealer revelator. Look at it, Rising up and rising down, taking everything with it.’ ‘What’s that?’ Anna asked. ‘Water,’ the Dutchman said. ‘Well, and time.’ — Peter Van Houten, An Imperial Affliction

   He Wanted the Moon: The Madness and Medical Genius of Dr. Perry Baird, and His Daughter’s Quest to Know Him by Mimi Baird is a lovely story about A mid-century doctor’s raw, unvarnished account of his own descent into madness, and his daughter’s attempt to piece his life back together and make sense of her own.

Texas-born and Harvard-educated, Dr. Perry Baird was a rising medical star in the late 1920s and 1930s. Early in his career, ahead of his time, he grew fascinated with identifying the biochemical root of manic depression, just as he began to suffer from it himself. By the time the results of his groundbreaking experiments were published, Dr. Baird had been institutionalized multiple times, his medical license revoked, and his wife and daughters estranged. He later received a lobotomy and died from a consequent seizure, his research incomplete, his achievements unrecognized.
Mimi Baird grew up never fully knowing this story, as her family went silent about the father who had been absent for most of her childhood. Decades later, a string of extraordinary coincidences led to the recovery of a manuscript which Dr. Baird had worked on throughout his brutal institutionalization, confinement, and escape. This remarkable document, reflecting periods of both manic exhilaration and clear-headed health, presents a startling portrait of a man who was a uniquely astute observer of his own condition, struggling with a disease for which there was no cure, racing against time to unlock the key to treatment before his illness became impossible to manage.
Fifty years after being told her father would forever be “ill” and “away,” Mimi Baird set off on a quest to piece together the memoir and the man. In time her fingers became stained with the lead of the pencil he had used to write his manuscript, as she devoted herself to understanding who he was, why he disappeared, and what legacy she had inherited. The result of his extraordinary record and her journey to bring his name to light is He Wanted the Moon, an unforgettable testament to the reaches of the mind and the redeeming power of a determined heart.

I really like this book because it covers the life of someone with depression when depression was an unheard of and unnatural disease. It is a look into the disease that most do not get and that most sufferers are incapable of giving and I think it is vital that people understand what it is to feel like that. I could never explain to someone what it feels like to have mood swings that you can NOT control. To have days where you just dont want to leave your bed in fear of life and people. It is so hard and now someone has put it into the light and i kind of feel like Hazel Grace and this is my An Imperial Affliction!

Amazon Buying Link: http://www.amazon.com/He-Wanted-Moon-Madness-Daughters/dp/0804137471

Long Overdue respect and love to my Bestie!

I think everyone has that one friend who is always there for you and has nothing but time when you need help… and if by any chance you don’t… I am so sorry. I have an amazing friend who never seems to understand how much I truly appreciate her and everything that she does for me. But at the same time I am not usually the type of person to tell her. So today I would like to tell you all about my friend Sam. Sam may not mean anything to you but I don’t know how I could ever get anything done without her. I know we piss each other off every once in a while but that’s a normal human thing and we tend to get over it by the next day or so.

See I don’t drive and haven’t since I got my permit taken away. Sam has never had any problems with running me to the store or to pick something up and even though I know she doesn’t like being out in the dead of winter freezing her buns off, she never complains and pushes through it for me. But its not just that, her and I have been through a lot together, three moves, a cross country car ride in a jeep liberty with three other people and three full grown dogs ( Never doing that again), loss of family members, our significant others being home all the time, our significant others being at work all the time, children, pets, absolutely retarded room mates, crazy family members… it seems like we have been through it all and no matter what every time we are together her and I are in the biggest laughing fits ever!

I suffer from depression horribly and I can honestly say that if it wasn’t for Samantha I would be in bed and sleeping 24/7 because I normally don’t want to be around anyone… period. She has pulled me out of that funk and continues to make me laugh. I think the only thing that still needs work is my love of all things Christmas. She is slowly breaking me down though because she gets so excited over everything around that time of year. Thank you Sam for always being there as a strong support system, a hilarious friend and a wonderful part of my inner circle!

So tell me, who is your best friend? How long have you known them? Why do you love them!?

Forget about where your children are… do you know what your putting on and in their bodies!?

I wouldn’t consider myself health conscious but occasionally i like knowing what is in some of the products i buy or eat. Now i have ruined many meals for myself by finding these things out. Now I would consider myself one of those people who thinks… if i don’t know its there it shouldn’t affect me but i got a new Blogging for Books addition and i am amazed at whats in these food and drinks. If these types of things interest you, you should check out this book: This is What You Just Put In Your Mouth? By Patrick DiJusto. Amazon Buying Link: http://www.amazon.com/This-What-Just-Your-Mouth/dp/0804139881

*Synpsys* All of these pressing questions and more are answered in This Is What You Just Put In Your Mouth? Based on his popular Wired magazine column What’s Inside, Patrick Di Justo takes a cold, hard, and incredibly funny look at the shocking, disgusting, and often dumbfounding ingredients found in everyday products, from Cool Whip and Tide Pods to Spam and Play-Doh. He also shares the madcap stories of his extensive research, including tracking down a reclusive condiment heir, partnering with a cop to get his hands on heroin, and getting tight-lipped snack-food execs to talk. Along the way, he schools us on product histories, label decoding, and the highfalutin chemistry concepts behind everything from Midol to Hostess fruit pies.
Packed with facts you’re going to want to share immediately, this is infotainment at its best—and most fun!—which will have you giving your shampoo the side-eye and Doritos a double take, and make you the know-it-all in line at the grocery store.

Now I read this in one sitting because it is small and doesn’t have much to it but each product they cover has its own little section and what is in it and then after you read what is in it you have a back story on it which is kind of cool because you learn why certain products use certain drugs or chemicals or even why the creators of A1 sauce uses raisin paste in their recipe. This book covers things like dog food, snack foods (Doritos and  hot pockets), and soaps, gasoline and even heroin. Not that i know anyone who wants to know what is in heroin but if you ever needed to argue the contents at least you know some facts i guess. This was a very interesting book, with interesting facts like how K.Y. lubrication for men contains honey but for some reason i was expecting something else. I think i wanted to find out what gross and appalling things where in products so i knew what to stay away from but it is literally what the product is made of and explains where those products came from and what they are mainly used for… I give is 2 out of five stars. I recieved this book completely free for review purposes only!

They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself ~ Andy Warhol

   The quote above is the first thing I saw when I opened my newest book from blogging for books. Its right below this journal belongs to…
It seems like forever since I’ve owned a journal and I’m really excited because I have never had a journal like this before.

*synopsis*
    Do you ever stop to wonder how you got where you are? The Q&A a Day Journal shows you what was going through your head each day—for five years of your life. Simply turn to today’s date, answer the question at the top of the page, and when you finish the journal, start over. As you return to the daily questions again over the years, you’ll notice how your answers change (or don’t)! With questions that are sometimes provocative (“On a scale of one to ten, how happy are you?”), occasionally quirky (“What can you smell right now?”), and inevitably interesting (“If you could travel anywhere tomorrow, where would you go?”), this classically designed journal—embellished with beautiful details—is the perfect gift for anyone embarking on a new phase of life.

   Today’s question was if today was an animal what animal would it be? And it took me till just now to figure out that it would have to be a squirrel. It was busy, exciting and almost like I wanted to store up everything for the rest of winter so I didn’t have to step back out of my house till spring.
   Everyone would have a different answer of course and I like that it leaves it open for any person to answer. I think everyone should own this book or a book like it because it shows you how you grow as a person and how some changes impact you more than others! 5 stars!

Being fat and being honest about being fat…. keepin it real folks!

   From a very young age I was taught that I am different. Not just because I was from a different family life or because I towered over every other kid I went to school with but because I have always been over weight. This is a long life ordeal for me because I feel this played a key roll in my depression.
   I come from a family of big people. My mom always said the bigger you are the more love you have to give, kids and teenagers these days just don’t understand that. I was called so many horrible names through my school years and yes I know sticks and stone right? But for some reason I have always worried about what everyone else has thought of me. Screw sticks and stones because words don’t just hurt… they scar and those scars stick with you forever.

This is myself, my father and my two younger twin sisters Katrina and Sabrina. I hid in the back next to my father >.<

   I started realizing I was getting bigger and I didn't need other people telling me so for me to become aware. But the more I heard it the more I ate… the more I ate the more I heard it and I was caught in a never ending vicious circle of self loathing a I couldn't and still can't get out of it. I don't hear people telling me these things anymore but mentally I step out the door to go somewhere and instantly start looking over my shoulder to see who is staring at me. I always think that people see the worst in me because that is what people have done. This year I am trying so damn hard to get fit and lose weight. I have an amazing support system and I'm ready to make a new me.
   So with all of that said, I ordered It Was Me All Along by Andie Mitchell from blogging for books because I unneeded something for motivation and I am so happy I got this one. It's hard to find an honest big person or a small person who use to be big who doesn't want anyone to know. But Allie Mitchell knows what it's like and is 100% honest about everything she writes. I cried at a couple points during this book because I know what it feels like. I know how it feels to feel low and unable to pick myself up and I hate feeling like there is nothing that can be changed.
   If you have ever felt big, looked big or even you were just self conscious about those few extra pounds or loose skin, and ladies, let's face it, we all have at one point or another, get this book!

   ** SYNOPSIS **
A heartbreakingly honest, endearing memoir of incredible weight loss by a young food blogger who battles body image issues and overcomes food addiction to find self-acceptance.
 
All her life, Andie Mitchell had eaten lustily and mindlessly. Food was her babysitter, her best friend, her confidant, and it provided a refuge from her fractured family. But when she stepped on the scale on her twentieth birthday and it registered a shocking 268 pounds, she knew she had to change the way she thought about food and herself; that her life was at stake.

It Was Me All Along takes Andie from working class Boston to the romantic streets of Rome, from morbidly obese to half her size, from seeking comfort in anything that came cream-filled and two-to-a-pack to finding balance in exquisite (but modest) bowls of handmade pasta. This story is about much more than a woman who loves food and abhors her body. It is about someone who made changes when her situation seemed too far gone and how she discovered balance in an off-kilter world. More than anything, though, it is the story of her finding beauty in acceptance and learning to love all parts of herself.

*** AMAZON BUYING LINK ***
http://www.amazon.com/It-Was-Me-All-Along/dp/0770433243

When you are near your enemy, do you really know they are enemies?

I’m just going to jump into this one because I’m not thrilled about it….

   *synopsis*
Spademan–the kill-for-hire antihero from Shovel Ready–returns in another riveting, twisted, genre-busting novel from Adam Sternbergh

It’s a year after Shovel Ready. Persephone is ensconced with her newborn upstate; Simon the Magician is struggling to keep control of Harrow’s evangelical empire; and Spademan has accepted a seemingly routine job: to snuff out a no-good bed-hopper named Lesser. Lesser has been causing headaches all over the limnosphere, racking up enemies left and right. But Lesser comes back from the dream with a wild claim: that the terrorists have found a way to infiltrate the limnosphere, to hijack the luxury virtual escape from the inside. And they’re doing it from somewhere in New York.

Spademan is not used to having enemies–his foes usually end up dead pretty quickly–but he tries to stay vigilant about the dangers that lurk right under our noses. He’s about to find out just how close these new enemies are–and how dangerous they can be

My review: I was not happy about this book at all. For the second time in the past few months I have received a book that doesn’t give me a lot of emotion…. yes there is feelings and action….. and no damn dialog. Just like Fiend there is nothing to tell when someone is having a conversation or if someone is thinking or doing something. I don’t know why this bugs me so much but it does… I have heard of so many authors who have gone to school for years in English classes before becoming an author. So is this a new fad!? Writing like a 3rd grader? Like… wtf!? I’m losing all faith in literature. I read so many good reviews about this book but it wasn’t for me. Thanks Adam Sternbergh for wasting my time!

Too young to feel this damn old….

   Tuesday is my 25th birthday and I feel sooooo damn old. In life you go through so many important days and you never really know the significance of them until your older…. let’s see….
We have your first birthday…. and let’s face it… that shit isn’t for anyone but your patents who live to take those embarrassing pictures you will never live down…. skip forward a few years and your at your 13th birthday…. you can’t really celebrate thus one because well…. to you you are now a teen but to your parents…. your still a child. 16 is huge for girls… super sweet 16 right you get your permit/licence and you get to go to prom. 18 your out of school, home and in the real world. Great, right? Till you start getting bills in your name that seem outrageous but you always find a way to figure it out…. Then the big 21 comes and you can party and drink and get locked in jail for public intoxication…. who doesn’t want that?
   No one really cares about the next couple decades till you hit 50 or even 100 if your lucky. But I do. A quarter of a century is huge time because I look back at everything in my life and think… how the flying hell did i make it!? But there are still things I wish could have been done but live and learn right? I’ve been on an emotional rollercoaster as the days tick closer…. so I’m doing what I do best when stressed out… blogging baby!
   So I’m curious…. what is one day that you will always remember? Be it a birthday, holiday or even the day you were picking your nose and found a penny…. it doesn’t matter… because it was something for you… let me know! Love y’all and happy reading!

Shitty emotions, holidays and babies… Just not in that order!

   I am a horrible blogger…. there I said it…. I am a horrible blogger…. not just because I’m new at it but I haven’t been posting much lately. And honestly I don’t know if I can still be considered a new blogger. I’ve been blogging since, like, June but it still seems new to me. But I’m rambling as usual! So I need to blog to get these emotions out… I feel free to say what’s on my mind when I blog. I just need to find the words to explain these feelings and in no way hurt anyone who may read this because that is by far my intentions.
   ~ PRE- CHRISTMAS ~
Christmas always puts me in that mood. That EFF life, who cares, why bother mood. And since Tim and I have been together I have gradually gotten better about my holiday moods but this year was better than last by far. I think it was better because Tim has been busting balls at work to bring home better checks so we have money to do things as a family. If it wasn’t for the work him and Chris put into working so hard I don’t know where we would be…. To help with my better mood I have these amazing book worm friends who never fail to amaze me with their positive attitudes and care as well as generosity. I couple months or so ago my kindle went missing and we had no idea where it went. These ladies, in the middle of the financial tight spot of the year, pulled together and pitched in to buy a brand new Kindle PaperWhite. I came out to find mail on the table with my name on it and when I opened it to find that and a new case for it…. I cried. To have such amazing friends, that have never met me, and don’t want me to have to suffer without my books, just had me dumbfounded. I feel like such a shitty person because I haven’t been participating in a lot of activities. I get on every day but I never know what to say so I close out the app and do it again the next day. Love these amazing women because they do so much for everyone I sometimes feel like I don’t belong with women who are so amazing but i realize we were brought together by books, surround each other in book related material and non book related too and we support each other no matter what the subject, like loss of a family member or schooling or just random bitching! So I’m trying to tell myself I have a place here every time I’m in group but I think with time ill be more comfortable.
   ~ CHRISTMAS ~ 
Christmas eve brought a new addition to our family. Tim has a younger sister, Candice, who was supposed to give birth on the 21 of December and didn’t until 6:00 am on the 24th. This child is so funny and his faces crack me up! But I look at him and I want to break down. Tim and I have been through two miscarriages and it makes it harder and harder for the both of us to even want it. I know Tim would love to be a father, and he would make the perfect one, but he is worried about financial statuses, which I love about him. I want so badly to be able to hold this baby more than I do but I can’t. And I don’t want to say this to any of them because I don’t want them to feel like I’m targeting them because again… in no way am I trying to hurt anyone. On the 20th of this month I will be 25 years old and i look at my life and think… ” where in the hell has all of this time gone?” I went to school with women who now have two , three and four children and here I am, holding everyone else’s baby, wishing it was mine. Not in a law and order type longing… just wishful thinking. I can’t control it, its like word vomit, mental word vomit. But Christmas brought so many good, healthy, hopeful thoughts and I was hoping it would last.
   ~ NEW YEARS ~
I have come to the realization that the key to my unhappiness is my physical state. I just haven’t done anything about it and I need too. My body hurts more as I get older and getting out of bed is ridiculous. I hate standing for too long because my sides hurt. So I have told myself that this is the year. This is the year I will be better, not just for my mental health but physical health as well.  I’m going to be working out more but I need to get myself into that mindset that I CAN DO IT, and I NEED TO DO THIS. Along with working on my physical health I’m thinking about quitting smoking but I’m not entirely sure that’s going to happen. Its something that keeps me from wanting to kill everyone. My mental health is back in the place where it use to be and I can’t pin point where it comes from but I honestly hate myself. I don’t say these things to complain or to gain sympathy but to make them known to those around me. I go through days where im not happy and cheerful and funny and that is why. I get tired of wearing that mask that says, ” No, I’m perfectly fine!” I love my family, my book worm friends and all of my followers on WordPress and off and honestly these are the people who keep me from actually wanting to kill myself. I’m just afraid that I’ll get to that place where even that won’t matter. I love joking, but lately I’m not in the mood for it. So to anyone who reads this, thank you, for your time, patience and love. I’m not dead yet! Happy new year! Read on, my loves, read on!

“Don’t Judge a Book by its Cover!”

   So I have yet another (Blogging For Books) book review for today. This one is called THE BOOK OF STRANGE NEW THINGS by Michel Faber. This book was far from what I thought it was going to be. The saying, ” Don’t judge a book by its cover!” Is a great way to describe this book!
 
  

   It begins with Peter, a devoted man of faith, as he is called to the mission of a lifetime, one that takes him galaxies away from his wife, Bea. Peter becomes immersed in the mysteries of an astonishing new environment, overseen by an enigmatic corporation known only as USIC.   His work introduces him to a seemingly friendly native population struggling with a dangerous illness and hungry for Peter’s teachings—his Bible is their “book of strange new things.” But Peter is rattled when Bea’s letters from home become increasingly desperate: typhoons and earthquakes are devastating whole countries, and governments are crumbling.  Bea’s faith, once the guiding light of their lives, begins to falter.  

Suddenly, a separation measured by an otherworldly distance, and defined both by one newly discovered world and another in a state of collapse, is threatened by an ever-widening gulf that is much less quantifiable.  While Peter is reconciling the needs of his congregation with the desires of his strange employer, Bea is struggling for survival.  Their trials lay bare a profound meditation on faith, love tested beyond endurance, and our responsibility to those closest to us.

   I had to force myself to read this book! At first I was curious after reading the synopsis… then I woke up! While I was reading it all I had going through my mind was what was I thinking….a story about aliens and the christian religion…. really!? It felt like a child wrote it. I have heard so many great things about this author and his previous books and I really wish this wasn’t the first book of his that I read… I’m so disappointed!
1/5 stars.